Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Anxiety

Just send my 2nd draft to a group of readers. My not-so-secret fear is that they will read it and think "Oh my God, this is awful. Poor her - she'll never publish anything."

Ok, so what if it's true? What if this book stinks. bad. real bad...
The next one will be better. right?

ugh.

lots o' freelance work. office a mess. not getting enough downtime. cannot keep up with E. 2nd night in a row I insisted on Karen time. I don't even want to know what he's doing because it will go something like this:
E: "So, how was your evening? Get a lot done?"
Me: "Yes - I read a chapter of Villette, polished my toenails and updated my blog. You?"
E: "I replaced the engine in my car, re-painted a wall in the living room, fixed the loose hinge on the dishwasher, took out the garbage and ran 15K."

Grrr. freakin' e. He doesn't lord it over me or anything, but there is just no keeping up with him. grrr. I'm going to start adding "and I thought over some tricky plot points" to all my time-accounting answers. He knows it's code for did nothing, but at least it sounds good.

4 comments:

Dodi said...

Based on the earlier draft of the first chapter, I am not worried at all that it will be bad. I'm excited to read it.

Congratulations on finishing the second draft!

As for accounting your time, artists aren't expected to work at the same pace as 'normal' people. And E is obviously an alien or a genetic mutant.

Karen said...

ha ha - thanks, dodi : )

Anonymous said...

i think he is a could candidate for poligamy.

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